After church on Sunday, I took a long nap. It took a lot for me to emerge from my bed in time to check out the Christmas star that evening. The clear skies and family time were necessary to soothe my exhausted heart. Sleeping away a hard day, a satisfying change of pace from weeks of sleeping so very little. This winter break had almost nothing planned so I could catch up on my thoughts and rest; processing time has been lacking in my full speed ahead schedule lately. But of course, that was the plan.....
On Monday, Kate consulted with a pediatric neurologist for on-going concerns surrounding her post concussive syndrome. Whereas we knew we wouldn't have any immediate answers, we also didn't anticipate learning we were months away from further diagnostic testing beyond the MRI and upcoming lab work. Neuro-psych evaluations require months in waiting. So we will wait. We took advantage of the sunny afternoon out together with some last minute shopping and lunch. We both needed the day out together.
While we were out, Ty spent the day with his best buddy, Kendra. They never stopped moving and ended the nine hour playdate begging for a sleepover we declined to honor. Her mother and I treasure their friendship.
However, Monday afternoon Erin received her latest pap results and was immediately referred to the Brown Cancer Center. We are reeling. The procedure six months ago was expected to eradicate the cells and all surrounding tissue contained negative margins. Erin is angry and I am devestated. The appointment left us with more questions than answers and higher level of frustration than either of us experienced prior. She will be seeing three more physicians in the coming weeks.
Thursday morning, Austin called to tell us Rudolph was leading Santa's sleigh to his house and he was going to make cookies for him. We adore that little boy and his giant vocabulary.
The girls requested pet Christmas photos. Of course they did.
Thursday evening, Greg, Kate and I attended our candlelight service while my parents stayed behind with Erin who remains more nervous about Covid. Makenna and Ty chose to spend the time with grandparents as well. When we returned, charcuterie boards were displayed and an explanation was given for a partially broken lamp. "We only broke one thing so can we have dessert now?", Erin age 25. And so the evening was spent talking over appetizers and dessert. This grown up Christmas Eve a bit different from the years spent spreading reindeer food, making Santa's plate, reading The Night Before Christmas and making a mess with ash from the fireplace to signify Santa's arrival down the chimney. Both seasons are perfect in their own way.
Mom brought hot chocolate bombs to replace our traditional Christmas Eve tea party. They were a huge success, even if they were too big to fit inside our mugs.
Ty could not believe how cold it got overnight and lamented our decision to forbid the air track in the living room so Grandpa bowled on the wii with him. |
Christmas Eve service told the nativity story in it's original language, which ended up being a beautiful way to absorb the emotions of those involved. In the remainder of our worship, Prince of Peace was repeated and precisely the reminder my soul needed. He is the Prince of Peace despite the chaos of my world. Immanuel. God with us.
In the quiet of Christmas morning, Oliver wanted me to know he is still a gift. He is humble like that. |
Kate celebrating the additon of a hamster to our zoo. |
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